This summer has been really good, since the weather is great! (Not so great because it’s probably the result of global warming). I have been working, but lucky enough to also have days off. On those days I relax, work out (if I am up for it), read books (the art of not giving a f*ck for example), netflixing and meeting up with friends. What I often do with friends is eat. We go out and eat, eat eat. Because what is the best way to catch up with some good?! I tell them that I am so happy we live in a place where it is easy to get to a beach. It’s only a half hour drive! I also love to spend time at the park and have a BBQ.  I’ve been to some festivals and I will be going to the notting hill carnival in London the end of this month. I’m super excited for that!

With this weather it makes it all easier and I get sad to think that the dutch weather isn’t like this all the time.  Everyone seems to have more energy and excited with that extra vitamin D boost. My summer has been pretty good so far. I really can’t complain. In november I am going to Vietnam, so that is when I will get to relax and absolutely do nothing. Hope you also have a great summer!

#ONMAYBODY

Bikini from Imagine by Kim

Top and short from H&M

ENG: yesterday I went to the beach with my friends.  I was Just tanning, chilling, all the usual things you do at a beach day. I got really tanned and tomorrow I’m going to another beach with other friends. It has been a chilled past couple of days, so I really can’t complain. Xo

NL: gisteren ben ik met wat vriendinnen naar het strand geweest. We hebben lekker gechillt, lekker bakken en gewoon alle standaard dingetjes die je doet als je een strand dagje hebt! Ik ben zo bizar bruin geworden en morgen ga ik nog een keer. De afgelopen dagen waren super chill, dus ik mAg echt niet klagen. Xo

ENG: Hey girls and guys! It’s been a while since my last update. Last week I reached the age of 25 and my BF(f) turned his house in to a little party lounge. I honestly had the best time, but that was all because of the fun people who came to celebrate with me. I remember when my friends turned 25+ I always thought they were so grown up and have life figured out. But maybe that was just a naive thought of the younger me. I got a super fun job where I’m creatively free and learning tons, I got a good group of friends and so on. Since I got that mindset of letting things (for example half of my wardrobe) and people go, I have more space in my head. Now that when I have so called ”troubles” on my mind, I can detect more easily where it comes from. What I want to say is that my birthday was an extra boost of realizing stuff (ha, see what I did there) and knowing how blessed I am.  The little things in life are really the greater things! Xo May

NL: Hallo allemaal! Het is alweer een tijdje terug sinds mijn laatste update. Afgelopen week was ik jarig en heb ik mijn verjaardag gevierd. Mijn BF(f) toverde zijn huisje om in een mini party lounge. Ik heb echt de tijd van m’n leven gehad, maar dat kwam vooral door mijn vrienden en familie. Ik herinner me dat toen sommige vrienden 25+ werden, ik altijd dacht dat zij zó volwassen waren en hun leven op orde hadden. Dat was misschien de jongere naïeve May. Ik heb een super leuke baan, waar ik creatieve vrijheid heb en veel van leer, heb een goede vriendengroep en ga zo maar door. Sinds ik een mindset heb waar ik dingen (zoals mijn halve kledingkast) en mensen loslaat, heb ik meer ruimte in mijn hoofd. Nu wanneer ik negatieve gedachten en vibes heb, kan ik makkelijker terugkoppelen waar het vandaan kom. Wat ik dus eigenlijk wil zeggen is dat ik op m’n verjaardag er extra stil bij stond wat het leven mij heeft gebracht en geeft. Het zijn echt de kleine dingen in het leven die het doen! Xo May

2016, 2016, let me start from the begin.

2015 was a crappy year full of personal challenges and heart breaks, so this year had to be a year of avoiding mistakes.

• First it was time for a little retreat with Jennie to the USA. And oh boy, what a good time we had there at the Grand Canyon, Las Vegas and LA. It was a chilled vacation and I’m happy to gain a new friend, one that I was going to spend more time with now and then.
• I went to great events with my blog. For example I met two girls from the cast of Awkard and Faking It. I’ve became an Nelson Ambassador and went to the big Primark Amsterdam opening.
• Talking about friends I have lost touch with some, because now I really know done is done. I’ve come to know new people and I treasure all these little moments with them, because maybe at some point I could call them my friends. You are who you are surrounding yourself with, so find good people who lift you up.
• I started my new job where I have been feeling less stressed. You can say I’m a bit less of a mess 😉 I’m so thankful and greatful for this opportunity and hope to get the most out of this journey. So i’d like to thank my girlboss for believing in me.
• My blog was hacked for a while which lead to me starting over with a clean slate. The sucky part is that I lost my visitors and all my previous updates. On the other hand it means I can now focus on better content again.
• I also started good with working out but you know how that ends. Once there are more fun things to do like eating with friends. I will find the motivation to start again..
• In the summer things got a little rough, ive seen someone passed away right in front of me. Yeah that was some heavy stuff. It reminded me of how life can be so fragile and unexpecting. These kinds of things are just never ending.
• I went to Barcelona with Jennie and Wendy for a little getaway in the sun. That was really fun ❤
• The MTV EMA’s were held in Rotterdam and it was obviously that I needed to go. So I went to the fan audition alone to score a red card carpet ticket for the show. It was one of these moments I felt proud I did something for myself without anyone else.

Did I avoid making mistakes? No, not at all, but I have learned from every choice I made.
So here we are today in 2017. This will be the year of just letting things go. I mean, what ever really happen nobody knows. All I know is that I need to find my inner peace and common ground. With the thought of that the best is yet to come, nothing can bring me down! 🙏

Thank you for reading my blog. These were just some of the points I wanted to share. I wish you all a happy and blessed new year filled with laughter and lots of love.

XO
May

#ONMAYBODY: Top from Ladieslovebossy, Trousers from River Island (from years ago!), Choker from Pull & Bear, Hat from Zara (sale last season)

At one point everyone will ask the same question: ”What is the purpose of my life”. Think about that, that each and everyone has this same thought, but the awnsers won’t be the same. I could debate and talk about this whole life thing for hours. It seems tiring, but to me, it gives me perspective each time. I noticed that I really only have to focus on what I do and what I can do for the people around me first. There is purpose in every little thing that you decide or do in my opinion. Each choice has a certain outcome and that is how life just goes on and on. So strange when you think about it. Or not, I am an over thinker so maybe these thoughts are a bit new for you (i hope not). Anyways, besides all of that deep thinking – everything is fine 😉 Just wanted to share a thought with you!

You probably heard of the term: ”life is what you make of it”. I try to live a simple life and chill down, but ”life” does not always go my way. There are so many factors that you can’t control and situations that turn out and impact you, small or big. For the past month I have the feeling I am just drifting through life. I’m trying to keep myself busy with work, meeting up with people, but at the end of the day I rather want to netflix and chill haha. I am currently still watching Gilmore Girls, keeping up with Pretty Little Liars and started with ”The Get Down”

Last weekend I went to Germany visit my family and we went to Hamburg for some sightseeing and shopping. I drove so fast with the car and even reached the limit of 194 kmh! That gave me such an adrenaline. Yesterday I went to Antwerp with a few girls and I just came home. We rented a loft that had a pool and took many pictures. It was short but fun!